Written by Mathew Naismith
Pandora’s Box; in this case doesn’t refer to anything sinister but to something undesirable at the time of opening the box for it’s the timing of such things that will make opening such box’s undesirable or not. This is in reference to when I was in my mid-teens when I was in a conscious awareness state that allowed me to ask any question at all & get an immediate answer, yes I have gone over this before however I didn’t realise the consequences of my conscious state in my mid-teens until now.
As I have stated in past posts I turned my back on this in my late teens however the effects of such states of consciousness didn’t leave me altogether but I still had a handle on things because I was being as human as possible as I was determined to live out my drama life to the letter.
Anyone who opens Pandora’s box or in this case become reconnected at any time in one’s life for any amount of time to one’s inner self will suffer or feel the effects of such occurrences for the rest of their lives which in most cases if one desired to open such box’s in the first place will be of good feeling & thanksgivings not of regret hopefully. Don’t get me wrong I don’t at all regret opening the box but how much I opened it, I didn’t just slowly open it I opened it without knowing, not just not knowing what was inside but what the consequences of fully opening of such box’s would incur for me for the rest of my life.
The opening of Pandora’s box was a must at that time in my life, I wasn’t doing so well mentally, if it wasn’t for my spiritual awareness which the opening of the box helped with I probably wouldn’t be here especially as I am now. So in all Pandora’s box itself saved my butt literally however the problem wasn’t what was inside this box but in how I opened the box, at this stage mentally I didn’t care because I knew I needed help which of course is what I desired & got.
So why am I calling reconnecting Pandora’s box? This is the clue shay, all my life I have tried to be as human as possible after experiencing such a reconnection in my mid-teens however by not desiring to be as spiritual as possible & obtain certain gifts incurred by such actions I in fact was being less human not more because desire is very human as I know from when I was connected so in my mid-teens. So wasn’t I desiring to be human therefore I was in fact being very human through humanistic desires? This is what fooled me, I was in fact having phantom desires because I already knew what I knew from my mid-teens & this is why I call reconnecting Pandora’s box.
If I was to accept what the box gave me I would have desired what most spiritually aware people desire however this was overshadowed by the way I opened the box, I just opened it fully up just like that & of course it hit me pretty well just like that. You would have thought this would have added to my traumas & yes you would be right to a point. In opening up the box like I did also gave me knowing for what I was going through which was nothing, a laugh a joke, I was no longer living the drama to the same extent but could live my life to whatever extent I wanted to live the drama too & so I did.
Human Desires: What makes one human is true desires like a spiritually aware person desires to be spiritual or more spiritual also a human denouncing spiritualism is of course being humanistic as well but someone who desires to be human isn’t being very humanistic as it shows how unhuman one is in the first place like we were before becoming physically human & this is what Pandora’s box did to me. It’s as if I’m still in the process of deciding to be human or not & I’m by far not the only person going through this process.
It would seem what I should have been doing is desiring to be more spiritually aware to become more human however because I opened up the box fully in the way I did becoming more spiritually aware wasn’t an option, in fact the only recourse I had was to desire to be more human like I did in the only way I could. Why couldn’t I have desired to be permanently spiritualistic? I would have been too knowing to be anything human as it would have changed my vibration completely.
It’s funny finding out I conned myself after all this time however we are all conning ourselves in one way or another, how many people think all they are is human?
What I could do now is be more human within my desires but incorporating this with my inner knowing which of course isn’t going to be easy, this is something else I didn’t know until now, my desires were restricted by my inner knowing & by doing this I wasn’t desiring in a humanistic way but in a way that was restricted by what I knew.
Once one becomes connected all you want to do is disconnect but of course once you, as a human, desire to reconnect or reconnect more in the first place you seem to want to stay connected but like I said once you do this fully all you desire then is to be disconnected again which of course is impossible to do, once connected always connected to some degree anyway, this is Pandora’s box!!